A few weeks have gone by since my last update and I'm at the end of my 3rd round of micro dosing. I am currently off the drops for the 3rd time. I have had more realizations that I want to share.
I have been a bit bummed because I am not in a constant high of feeling the love vibes from the Madre. I know she is around but in a different sort of way. She is showing me and teaching me things about yin and yang, why we have bad things happen to us, and why we can't always be in a happy space. We need the dark part as much as we do the light. Each contains a kernel of each other. The spiritualists say the shadow is what actually drives us, the interplay between our negative and positive selves. All these manifestations were just created for our learning and growth. We label them and judge them, but they are all necessary and for our good. I don't know if you believe in past lives but I have often wondered why anyone would want to come back to earth life? Now I know. You do not grow the same or as fast when you are in a constant state of love. That probably sounds really weird and I don't think I would have understood it if I hadn't just gone through a month and a half of pure love. The Madre keeps whispering to my soul sweet words of encouragement and gives me insights on my down days. I have never appreciated down days until now. She makes life much easier to cope with. Gracias Madre! Gracias!
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I just came across this article today about Ayahuasca. It explains so well how I feel about this plant medicine and the spirit of Ayahuasca. I am going to share it here and I hope it touches your heart like it did mine!
AYAHUASCA - Vine of the soul Bitter Zsolti·Wednesday, December 28, 2016 (Author of this note is user “Dr.Dr.” on http://www.forums.ayahuasca.com/ . It can be also found there under topic “Breaking down the GENERAL process of the experience”) ...What happens when you allow her in is that you, a living being, a living body and a living spirit, allows another living spirit to be within you for a couple of hours. That can be a quite freaky idea, I know. But it is not like there’s an alien in you; it is a spiritual friend, a guide, a teacher. If you are ready for her and treat her well she can be the most powerful ally and show you the way to a much healthier and happier life. You are not usually used to having another living being within you, inside you. You usually only feel yourself, and your own life inside you. Now when you invite her in, she can live for some time in your body. She doesn’t have to necessarily. If your mind and reason is too strong, she might not even come through… if your body is not clean or filled with other chemicals, processed foods, substances or medicines, she might not feel at home and rather not come through… An open mind and a clean body will allow her to feel at home and to move freely. When she enters, I can feel her coming into my entire body, until going into my toes… she is a vine and that’s how it can feel when she goes through your body. It is nothing like any other “dead” substance that you take. You might feel alcohol flowing down your throat or nicotine moving until the tip of your fingers, but the difference is that she is alive. She goes through your body, almost squeezes through… it is pretty tight in there, since it is full of life, full of your life… now she’s alive as well, and squeezes in there… it feels very relaxing and somewhat strange, since you’re not used to feeling other life inside your body… she is so alive, you can also talk to her and she will respond… She then roams your body and feels if there are physical problem areas or blockages. She might find areas in your body that are not well or that need your attention. You might have known about these issues, but might have suppressed or ignored them, or you might not have been aware where some of your physical issues come from… so you start to look at these areas, internally, inspect them internally. She just flows through your body, and “bumps” on these areas, which allows you then to have a clear look at them, one at a time, often from a totally new perspective. You become aware of your body and its holistic health. Some become aware of very specific issues that affect the overall health balance, others realize they eat too much meat, etc… Some people purge during this process, which is actually a blessing, since she might choose to use this physical mechanism to clean out negative energies. You can also purge through your pores, through sweat, or through your eyes, through crying. All have the same liberating effect and get rid of negative residuals that your body might still have. While she is roaming and co-inhabiting your body she also “bumps” against mental blockages that you might have, for example some influential memories or formative experiences. Some of these might have become part of your self. Some might rather be hindering and distressing, but you might have decided to live with them anyways. They became a part of you, like a stone in the road that you learned to go around. For you this might have become normal and you even identify with it as “part of you”, but for her, who is just now roaming around your body this is something that doesn’t have to be there necessarily. It is something that has been experienced or learned, and can therefore also been unlearned or removed. You might get aware, for the first time, that these “stones in the road” are actually there and that you constantly make a huge effort to live with them… you start to have a closer look at them and realize what they are, how they got there, what’s their history, and that it is actually not necessary to make this constant effort to deviate them. Once you are aware of them you might as well work on removing them. Forgotten memories from far back might come to you and make you understand why things are the way they are and why you are the way you are, why friends and family are the way they are… you could also get to the bottom of these things through months of intense therapy… here she simply shows them to you and you will know naturally what to do with it… having a friendly spirit checking your body and mind like this, can help you to see these “issues” yourself and work on the yourself… and we all have “issues”, unavoidably, because our ego is the result of countless experiences, so the best is to understand them and to understand why we are the way we are… She allows us to feel things that we suppressed and didn’t pay attention to; old baggage that we carry around with us unnecessarily. In the figure of speech that I was using, she squeezes into your body, and since it is so tight with life inside you, she “squeezes out” the reason for some time, and allows you to feel the essence of your living being… your ego is aside, which can be a somewhat unfamiliar or even a scary for people who identify very much with and cling very heavily to their learned ego… The fact that she’s an inhibitor is also the reason why the experience is different for everyone (in its content, not in the general mechanism). The inhibiting nature lets you get “high” through our very own and personal feelings, makes you feel them in an overwhelmingly clear manner. Some people cry, some people laugh; some people get relaxed, others motivated; some discharge sadness, others build up their self-esteem… she inhibits the reason and gives everybody what is needed to heal… but since they are your own feelings, they never seem strange or unfamiliar… they might have been forgotten or suppressed, but never unfamiliar… This is the reason why she is a medicine (“medicina”): she allows us to discover and heal ourselves, physically and mentally. She is also seen as the queen of plants because she embodies a living spirit that can co-live within us like that for some time. This is very unique and special. And that is also her secret: to live in harmony and balance - even inside us. She’s a plant and plants are the base of life, in the sense that they are the ones that can take “dead matter” (like water- and earth molecules and photons from the sun) and convert it into life. We and animals cannot do that… How do plants do that? They get into the same rhythm and vibration of this “dead matter” and combine them in harmony (according to an algorithm programmed in their DNA), balancing the strength of each of the ingredients and forming new structure (fighting entropy) out of decaying matter by weaving the balanced dynamic of each of them together. Plants only take as much as they need and are in constant flow with the transformation of energy from lifeless matter to life. Moreover, she’s a vine, a vine from the jungle. There is a fierce struggle in the jungle. It’s a jungle… but she always strives for the light… she is also connected to the bottom, parasites drag on her, and is surely also connected to dark energies… she can show you these as well, but there is absolutely no need at all to go there… she herself strives for the light, always and that’s what we should do… She winds herself through this jungle, in perfect harmony and balance with all the other life. And she is connected to all the other life… We call her “she” because she embodies life, and life is female (females give life…). She embodies the secret of life, which is to be in balance and harmony with everything else in the universe and to strive toward the light, the higher energies… she is a very old spirit and has access to the life of all other living beings, physical structures and energies... This is why she is called the queen of plants (“reina de las plantas”)… When she is firm in your body and you are stable with her, when you feel well with her and start to dance with her, she can show you these things and many other things. Energetically and spiritually, things from ancient times and from the present. The diversity and magic of life, the connections from other levels of existence, the astral planes and different dimensions… if you are stable with her she will do this in your very own language, and with the concepts that you understand and are familiar with… but if, and only if, you take it slow with her… otherwise she will show you things that you don’t understand… First and foremost she will bring out what’s inside you. I know of alcoholics coming to a ceremony with the ambition to see and understand divine energies and the secrets of life, just in one night, just like that… they won’t… the plant will first work with them on their own issues, on their unhealthy bodies, and on their unhealthy minds that led them to their unhealthy bodies, which is extremely healing and useful, as a first step, but won’t allow her to show the things that they might want her to show them… it’s simply impossible, she’ll show you what she finds and what is needed at first… there’s too much interference in the way to get to higher spheres, and that is healing… It is a big gift when she shows you higher spheres that you can understand, but for this you have to be comfortable with her, and the energies around you have to be on a very high vibrational level… This is also why she is called a “teacher-plant” (“planta maestra”), and she can teach us not only about ourselves, but also about other living beings and dynamics… So the idea is not to get hit by her or blown away (which she can do as well), but rather to cultivate her gentle spirit inside you, like cultivating a living spirit, and to go with her on solid grounding, embracing her presence within you… you can then also talk with her, tell her to slow down, to go easy on you, or you can sit up and let her take you and fly… the idea is to co-live with her and her wisdom for a couple of hours… co-living does not mean control (do what you want to happen), nor does not mean the loss of control, but to co-live in mutual trust and in mutual control… If you are with her in the energetically light spirit and with a spiritual elevated person who is her very good friend and companion, and if you do your preparations and allow her in and invite her, if you allow her to co-live in you for some hours, she can be a very powerful friend and ally and show you not only the secrets about your life, past, present, and future, but many more secrets about life and happiness. She can help you to channel these because she (a jungle vine) embodies the main trick of life and happiness: to be in balanced harmony with everything else in the universe and to constantly strive for the light… This way she can help you to purify yourself from the inside and to continue on your path toward the personal light, balance and happiness… Microdosing Ayahuasca & Cat’s Claw
Ayahuasca Vine Only The Ayahuasca brew used in ceremonies with a shaman is a combination of the Banisteriopsis caapi vine and the Psychotria viridis leaf also known as Chakruna or Chacruna. The Chakruna leaf provides the DMT responsible for the hallucinogenic effects common in ceremonies. Microdosing does not include the Chakruna leaf so there is no DMT involved; it is only when the Chakruna plant is combined with the caapi vine that it becomes hallucinogenic. Since there is no DMT, microdosing the vine only is legal in most countries; a shaman is not necessary when microdosing. You are better off not microdosing the vine with the leaf as there is not enough MOAI in microdosing to de-animate the MAO in your system. This would cause the DMT to be totally neutralized. Macrodosing, which includes the Chakruna leaf, we believe should be done in a ceremony setting with a shaman. But many of the same benefits can be obtained by microdosing, which is more gentle and subtle. But even microdosing can and should be treated as a spiritual practice. Many have expressed the desire to maintain the feelings of peace and connection experienced after a full ceremony, which is entirely possible through microdosing. It is recommended that you set your intentions and be observant of yourself; journaling is recommended as the changes you experience can be subtle. Be observant of your feelings and how your daily life, as well as any physical conditions, may change. You may obtain insight, clarity, patience, endurance, vitality, etc. We would like to hear your experiences. We believe in seeking connection to “The Madre”, which is the spirit of Ayahuasca. She is a very powerful, loving, and gentle spirit and should be respected. Questions asked: Diet: If you have done ceremonial Ayahuasca, the diet before and after is no red meat, no processed foods, no salt, no alcohol, and no cheese or fermented foods. When microdosing, the diet is not necessary because the dosage is so small, but some have reported that their diet naturally improves and cravings can change. Can you drink alcohol? Yes but in moderation. How are the drops made? Fresh cut vine from deep in the jungles of Peru, pounded then boiled in huge stainless steel pots for 14 hours, refined slowly to a very thick paste. The paste is then rehydrated with distilled water. 70% Caapi Banisteriopsis vine only (no DMT) and 30% Cat’s Claw. The Caapi Pure Vine only is 100% pure vine. This is not a tincture. This product is for microdosing only. Drugs: Please do not substitute any medication prescribed by your physician with microdosing. Do not stop any medication without consulting your physician. Price and Amounts: $39 for 1 ounce dropper bottle plus shipping. Dose: We recommend that you start with just five drops under your tongue daily (sublingually) for 3- 5 minutes. Let it absorb into your mucus membranes and your capillary system; it will only take a few minutes. If you swallow, you lose half the value as it contacts your gastric system. It is ok after a few minutes to chase it with juice. It is suggested that you do this for a month then take a break for a week or two for the body to adjust. At this point, you may adjust the dosage. Everyone is different. You know you have taken too much if you feel nauseous. Then repeat as desired. Shake bottle before use. Keep refrigerated. If you are not able to keep it in the fridge for a few days, keep it out of the sun. FDA Compliance: The information on these pages have not been evaluated by the Food & Drug Administration or any other medical body. We do not aim to diagnose, treat, cure or prevent any illness or disease. Information is shared for educational purposes only. You must consult your doctor before acting on any content on these pages, especially if you are pregnant, nursing, taking medication, or have a medical condition. You can find us on Facebook Mystic Planet, our website www.mysticplanet.shop and on Etsy at: https://www.etsy.com/shop/MysticPlanetShop Email:Mysticplanet@mysticplanet.shop I am in my 3rd round of microdosing and I wanted to give an update. This round has been different from the other 2 rounds. My first month was the getting to know each other phase. The 2nd round was the honeymoon full of love phase and this round seems to be more contemplative. I'm finding myself not feeling all lovey dovey and driving everyone nuts with all my singing and dancing around the house.
What I am experiencing now is more understanding of people and events. I am finding myself being deeply in gratitude for my parents, husband and others. Seeing in a new light the things that they have done for me over the years, the sacrifices they made for me. I wish I could explain it. I have memories from my past come up. I see the events in a new way. It is like seeing the past without the ego. I will have moments of that light, love, joyful feeling but it is not as much as the last round. That is ok because it would be a distraction from what I am being shown now. I love the growth and observations that come from the Madre. I hope I am forever changed! I started taking the Caapi Pure Vine drops for creativity. I had been feeling very blocked and felt like there was a wall around me. I just could not get myself motivated to do anything creative financially and what not.
I flip houses and nothing has been working out for me this past year. Since doing ceremony I have wanted to stay connected to the ayahuasca vine and I felt like the drops coming into my life was the perfect way to stay connected. I started to journal my days on the drops to see how it was affecting me. The first week I noticed a lot of ups and downs. I was surprised at how often I was down. Not because of the drops but because I was in a not so good space. The second week I had more ups than downs and by the 3rd week it was even better. After the 2nd week of doing the drops, my brother had sent me a book called Becoming Super Natural by Dr. Joe Dispenza and a meditation cd that goes along with the book called Clearing the Energy Centers. I am not a meditator but I can sure meditate now!! There are days when I am looking out the window or driving down the street and I find myself feeling like I am wrapped in a blanket of love. This feeling has continued even during the 8 days I took off. The recommendation is 10-14 days off but I felt it was time to start taking them sooner. For the 2nd round of drops, I decided to do the Caapi Pure Vine/ Cat's Claw blend. I did this because I googled the health benefits of cat's claw and was pretty impressed with what I found. I am doing even better this round of drops, which has been about 4 weeks. About 4 weeks ago I started to eat healthy and started to lose any desire for sugar or carbs. I had heard that the drops may do that to you. I have lost 7 lbs so far. I find that I move through things that make me angry much faster and I let go faster. As for my intent for creativity, well, I already started a new business. So what the medicine has done for me in the past 2 months is it has kept me in a peaceful, loving, joyful state. I no longer have bad days. I may have bad moments but that is all they are and they move on quickly. I am in awe and filled with wonderment. I am not saying that everyone will experience what I have but I sure hope so. I make no claims. All I can do is share my experience. If you are looking for an excellent Ayahuasca healing retreat center. I highly recommend Los Cielos in Pucallpa, Peru. |
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