I am in my 3rd round of microdosing and I wanted to give an update. This round has been different from the other 2 rounds. My first month was the getting to know each other phase. The 2nd round was the honeymoon full of love phase and this round seems to be more contemplative. I'm finding myself not feeling all lovey dovey and driving everyone nuts with all my singing and dancing around the house.
What I am experiencing now is more understanding of people and events. I am finding myself being deeply in gratitude for my parents, husband and others. Seeing in a new light the things that they have done for me over the years, the sacrifices they made for me. I wish I could explain it. I have memories from my past come up. I see the events in a new way. It is like seeing the past without the ego.
I will have moments of that light, love, joyful feeling but it is not as much as the last round. That is ok because it would be a distraction from what I am being shown now.
I love the growth and observations that come from the Madre. I hope I am forever changed!
I started taking the Caapi Pure Vine drops for creativity. I had been feeling very blocked and felt like there was a wall around me. I just could not get myself motivated to do anything creative financially and what not.
I flip houses and nothing has been working out for me this past year. Since doing ceremony I have wanted to stay connected to the ayahuasca vine and I felt like the drops coming into my life was the perfect way to stay connected.
I started to journal my days on the drops to see how it was affecting me. The first week I noticed a lot of ups and downs. I was surprised at how often I was down. Not because of the drops but because I was in a not so good space. The second week I had more ups than downs and by the 3rd week it was even better.
After the 2nd week of doing the drops, my brother had sent me a book called Becoming Super Natural by Dr. Joe Dispenza and a meditation cd that goes along with the book called Clearing the Energy Centers. I am not a meditator but I can sure meditate now!!
There are days when I am looking out the window or driving down the street and I find myself feeling like I am wrapped in a blanket of love. This feeling has continued even during the 8 days I took off.
The recommendation is 10-14 days off but I felt it was time to start taking them sooner. For the 2nd round of drops, I decided to do the Caapi Pure Vine/ Cat's Claw blend. I did this because I googled the health benefits of cat's claw and was pretty impressed with what I found. I am doing even better this round of drops, which has been about 4 weeks.
About 4 weeks ago I started to eat healthy and started to lose any desire for sugar or carbs. I had heard that the drops may do that to you. I have lost 7 lbs so far.
I find that I move through things that make me angry much faster and I let go faster. As for my intent for creativity, well, I already started a new business. So what the medicine has done for me in the past 2 months is it has kept me in a peaceful, loving, joyful state. I no longer have bad days. I may have bad moments but that is all they are and they move on quickly. I am in awe and filled with wonderment. I am not saying that everyone will experience what I have but I sure hope so. I make no claims. All I can do is share my experience.
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