Well I did it. I did ceremony with just the b.caapi vine. Wow, my mind is blown. I had no idea of what to expect and what happened was more than I could have hoped for.
I started off with ½ an ounce of the micro dosing drops. I could feel it coming on within the hour. It started off slow and the Madre would talk with me and answer my questions. I love the relationship that I have with her. She has such a great sense of humor and playfulness. I did not expect to have visuals. Sure enough they were there. But in a different way than if I were to have taken the traditional ayahuasca brew. It was more of a dream state. In traditional ayahuasca the visuals come on strong and are vibrant and for me are in constant motion. It wasn't that way with just the vine. I found myself being more clear minded and very in tune with my body and surroundings. Before ceremony I had asked the Madre questions. At one point she told me to still my mind. I was like how am I suppose to do that. She said to breath and follow your breath. It worked. At one point she told me to raise my kundalini. I asked her how do I do that? She said to breath and focus on pulling the breath and energy up my spine and she gave me home work to do. At one point the Madre told me it was time to purge. I said I will if you have the music start and ba boom right on cue the music started. A few thing like that would happen. I would think it and then ta da it happened. I would think about the facilitator and she would come sit next to me. The next day was the best and most interesting. All day I had been dreading it. I wanted to go home. I knew she was going to take me deep. One of the things I noticed with just the vine is that you really notice your emotions. After ceremony started I found myself getting really angry. I was so filled with anger that I wanted to run out the door and scream. I was like Madre what do I do with this anger. She said to get up and dance and whenever you are angry dance and send that anger into the earth to the aya doctors for healing and transformation this is one way to heal yourself through joy. I got up and started to dance. It was instant joy. After that I sat there for the longest time just feeling the joy. The Madre said now go and take a second dose you really need to purge. I don't want to I tell her. I am feeling so good I just want to feel the peace inside. She said ok I will let you sit here for a little longer but you have to take it sooner or later and the sooner you do it the sooner this will all be over. After a bit she was like ok it is time. I go up to the facilitator and she says do you want the rest of the bottle. I tell her I only want 10ml. She said is that what the Madre wants. I said the Madre said I am free to chose. Ha. So as she is pouring something bumped her hand and she ended up pouring all of it in the cup. We kinda chuckled. I am like I guess I need to drink all of it. The moment I swallowed it it all came back out and I started to purge. Not thinking, I said out loud “That wasn't very nice”. I could feel the Madre laughing and I found myself laughing inside too. after the purging I found myself instantly feeling the emotions of past hurts and the anger which then quickly turned into tender moments that were subtle that my parents and my husband would do. For example, walk past and lightly touch my hair or tenderly touch my check. I started to cry and cry and cry. I have a hard time crying and have never cried in ceremony. This was a much needed release and healing that took place. After that I spent the rest of the evening relaxed, aware, dancing, and in a peaceful dream state. I do not know if this is what it is like for other people that sit with just the vine and I know that I would have had a much harder time if I would have taken more. I am a light weight and don't need much to feel the medicine. I also do not know how much sitting with an amazing facilitator, the ceremony, icaros, music, being in a protective space, and being around others that were healing affected my experience. What I do know is it is not something I would do by myself. I am so grateful for the facilitator, assistants and those that sat with me for making this one of the best ceremonies I have ever attended.
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Day one of my Bobinsana dieta:
I started the Bobinsana dieta yesterday July 21st. The reason I am doing the dieta is because I have been feeling the call of the Master Plant Teacher Bobinsana. My intention is to open my heart more, love myself more and let go of past trauma that has closed my heart. I also wanted to see if it is possible to do a Bobinsana deita without being in the jungle. My life is pretty hectic. I am wanting to slow down so that I can really focus on this. Crossing my fingers that I can do this without letting the every day events get in my way. I have asked the spirit of Bobinsana to help me with this. The Bobinsana diet is similar to the ayahuasca diet plus more. For example no sweets, not even yummy fruit except bananas and apples. Nothing white so no yummy, sticky, white rice. I took my first dose of Bobinsana an hour before dinner. I went outside and sat with the medicine for awhile and had a good heart to heart talk with her. Within a few hours I was feeling pretty grounded. I wish there were words to explain it. I felt like liquid and yet solid at the same time. Clear and yet solid. Whatever the case, it felt pretty good. My wonderful curandara friend Sylvie Joy Olson Meier of Los Cielos Ayahuasca Retreat Center opened up the Bobinsana ceremony for me. She did it from her home while I was at my house. I love how that can happen. No time no space. I slept pretty good. Bobinsana dieta day 2, 7/22: I had lots and lots of dreams. My mom and dad who have crossed over were in my dreams. I don't really remember much of what was said except that I knew they were there and I didn't want to forget the dream. I also knew I was dreaming and was so excited to see them. I wonder if Bobinsana helps with lucid dreaming? When I woke up I didn't want to get out of bed. I kept falling back asleep. I finally got up when Sylvie texted me to see how I was doing. That is the great thing about Sylvie. She is always checking in. I was feeling a little eh when I woke up. By around 1:15 I noticed that I was feeling slightly silly and light hearted. I took a drive today because I wanted to have some alone time with the spirit of Bobinsana. I want to get to know her. Her energy if very different from the Madre (ayahuasca). I am currently not micro dosing caapi pure vine. I wanted to get to know Bobinsana all on her own. I am really liking this plant teacher. I like how she makes me feel. I think strong is a good word to use to describe her but even that isn't quite right. I found myself getting tired around 4pm. I tried to lay down for a nap but that didn't work. My eyes were tired but my body is vibrantly alive and awake. Lol Because I couldn't nap I decided to do one of Dr. Joe Dispenza's meditations “Tuning into New Potentials”. I worked on opening my heart and loving myself. It was an awesome meditation. It was a little hard to get in the zone at first because my body felt so alive but then I was able to settle in and have a great meditation. After the medi tation I felt great. Pretty normal rest of the day. I feel good. Bobinsana dieta day 3, 7/23: I woke up around 5:30am feeling kind of restless. I was having heart breaking memories of one of my children. Around 6:15am I decided to meditate again with Dr. Joe Dispenza's meditation. It was good. I was working on connecting to Bobinsana again and worked on healing my heart. I was able to fall asleep afterwards. I had a hard time waking up again. This is so not like me. I was in and out of sleep and having weird dreams about people being AI's. When I finally got up I was feeling kind of down and sad. Not sure why. I was feeling like I just want to get away and go sit on a beach. It is now 12:45 and I am feeling a little sad or at least not feeling happy. I might even be a little emotional. Not sure. I don't really have much of an appetite.. Bobinsana has been talking to me through my husband today. I knew it was coming from her through him. The things he said were exactly what I was asking her about. When I was in meditation these last couple of days I have asked to understand, (for no better way to explain it) my bi-polar heart. How is it that I can feel so many different emotions about a person/s and feel this wall over my heart. What are my true feelings? My husband made a comment about how we need to look at everyone that we care about as if this may be the last time we see them and what would we say if we could see past all the hurt and really say what our true feelings are. When people close to you die it is like your ego, stresses, and traumas that were covering your love bucket for them, where you hold all your true feelings and illusions, are removed so all that is left are our true feelings. There was of course a lot more said than that and then we sat and cried together (he is also taking bobinsana with me). It was really beautiful. I am so grateful for him and grateful to Doctorcita Bobinsana. I had a small family emergency and was about an hour and a half late taking my 2nd dose of bobinsana for the day. Within about an hour after taking it I felt so content. I really love this plant medicine! Bobinsana Dieta day 4 7/24: Today I woke up before the alarm went off to take my morning dose of Bobinsana. I quickly fell back to sleep afterwards. It was nice because this morning I woke up like I normally do. I felt happy. I immediately did my meditation. Today has been a day of observing what people say to me. I am noticing that for me Bobinsana communicates in subtle ways. I got a phone call today from one of my sons and the things he said to me felt like it was Bobinsana talking to me, then I went for a hike with a friend and her words were just what I needed to hear. I stopped at my daughter Sarah's and shared with her my day of insights. It was just what I needed. I came home and was chatting with my husband and his words were also what I needed to hear. How amazing that a plant can communicate with you through so many people. Then in the evening I had a bunch of drama come at me from about 4 or 5 different directions. My world fell apart. I felt like my world was collapsing. At about 1am I had the weirdest thing happen to me. I was laying in bed trying to fall asleep when I realized I couldn't remember one of my sons as a baby. I would try and try to have a memory and there were none. It was an actual sensation between my ears that almost hurt the more I tried to remember. I felt my solar plexus starting to get hot and the energy started to spread. I went into a full on panic attack and freaked out because I couldn't remember my baby (he is 29). Then I tried to remember my other kids as babies and I couldn't remember them as babies either. I could hardly breath. It was terrifying. I kept saying help me help me to my husband. He did everything he could to help but there really was nothing he could do. It was so insane. I have never ever experienced any thing like it. I have 7 children and today seemed to be about feeling like I have failed them. I have never really felt like or let myself feel like I have failed my kids but tonight was over the top and it was full on “you blew it”. It must have been something that I have feared or felt that needed to be released. Boy did it ever release. I talked with my wonderful curandera Sylvie today (7/25/19). She told me this is all part of the process and that it needs to come out. The reason I forgot my babies was because the Bobinsana is trying to show me who I am without my titles ie, mom, wife, owner of Mystic Planet etc. She is trying to show me my true self and my sovereignty. She worded it a lot better than that. I keep telling myself “cleanse cleanse cleanse, heal heal heal”. Bobinsana Dieta day 5, 7/25: This morning I woke up happy but as the day progressed I started to get angry. The anger felt like an empowered anger. I am finding that I need to really stay focused and in control. I did pretty good at staying in control. My husband was proud of me. Haha. I didn't do my meditation this morning because I was so worn out from the night before. After awhile the anger passed and I felt pretty normal for the rest of the day. I was really tired and took a nap. When I woke up I felt like myself. Doctor B. must be giving me a break after last nights surgery. Thank you Doctorcita Bobinsana. At about 11pm I turned on 70's music and danced for about an hour. I had this overwhelming feeling that this free spirited feeling that was flowing through me is who I really am. It felt amazing letting the teenager within me free. Both Tammy and Sarah talk about their struggles, and how micro dosing ayahuasca has changed their lives. They now run a webshop that sells microdose ayahuasca as well as other microdose plant medicines that help with many mental and physical help problems. But stay tuned to the very end, I also give an update about why it's been a while between episodes.
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I have been a bit bummed because I am not in a constant high of feeling the love vibes from the Madre. I know she is around but in a different sort of way. She is showing me and teaching me things about yin and yang, why we have bad things happen to us, and why we can't always be in a happy space. We need the dark part as much as we do the light. Each contains a kernel of each other. The spiritualists say the shadow is what actually drives us, the interplay between our negative and positive selves. All these manifestations were just created for our learning and growth. We label them and judge them, but they are all necessary and for our good. I don't know if you believe in past lives but I have often wondered why anyone would want to come back to earth life? Now I know. You do not grow the same or as fast when you are in a constant state of love. That probably sounds really weird and I don't think I would have understood it if I hadn't just gone through a month and a half of pure love. The Madre keeps whispering to my soul sweet words of encouragement and gives me insights on my down days. I have never appreciated down days until now. She makes life much easier to cope with. Gracias Madre! Gracias! I just came across this article today about Ayahuasca. It explains so well how I feel about this plant medicine and the spirit of Ayahuasca. I am going to share it here and I hope it touches your heart like it did mine!
AYAHUASCA - Vine of the soul Bitter Zsolti·Wednesday, December 28, 2016 (Author of this note is user “Dr.Dr.” on http://www.forums.ayahuasca.com/ . It can be also found there under topic “Breaking down the GENERAL process of the experience”) ...What happens when you allow her in is that you, a living being, a living body and a living spirit, allows another living spirit to be within you for a couple of hours. That can be a quite freaky idea, I know. But it is not like there’s an alien in you; it is a spiritual friend, a guide, a teacher. If you are ready for her and treat her well she can be the most powerful ally and show you the way to a much healthier and happier life. You are not usually used to having another living being within you, inside you. You usually only feel yourself, and your own life inside you. Now when you invite her in, she can live for some time in your body. She doesn’t have to necessarily. If your mind and reason is too strong, she might not even come through… if your body is not clean or filled with other chemicals, processed foods, substances or medicines, she might not feel at home and rather not come through… An open mind and a clean body will allow her to feel at home and to move freely. When she enters, I can feel her coming into my entire body, until going into my toes… she is a vine and that’s how it can feel when she goes through your body. It is nothing like any other “dead” substance that you take. You might feel alcohol flowing down your throat or nicotine moving until the tip of your fingers, but the difference is that she is alive. She goes through your body, almost squeezes through… it is pretty tight in there, since it is full of life, full of your life… now she’s alive as well, and squeezes in there… it feels very relaxing and somewhat strange, since you’re not used to feeling other life inside your body… she is so alive, you can also talk to her and she will respond… She then roams your body and feels if there are physical problem areas or blockages. She might find areas in your body that are not well or that need your attention. You might have known about these issues, but might have suppressed or ignored them, or you might not have been aware where some of your physical issues come from… so you start to look at these areas, internally, inspect them internally. She just flows through your body, and “bumps” on these areas, which allows you then to have a clear look at them, one at a time, often from a totally new perspective. You become aware of your body and its holistic health. Some become aware of very specific issues that affect the overall health balance, others realize they eat too much meat, etc… Some people purge during this process, which is actually a blessing, since she might choose to use this physical mechanism to clean out negative energies. You can also purge through your pores, through sweat, or through your eyes, through crying. All have the same liberating effect and get rid of negative residuals that your body might still have. While she is roaming and co-inhabiting your body she also “bumps” against mental blockages that you might have, for example some influential memories or formative experiences. Some of these might have become part of your self. Some might rather be hindering and distressing, but you might have decided to live with them anyways. They became a part of you, like a stone in the road that you learned to go around. For you this might have become normal and you even identify with it as “part of you”, but for her, who is just now roaming around your body this is something that doesn’t have to be there necessarily. It is something that has been experienced or learned, and can therefore also been unlearned or removed. You might get aware, for the first time, that these “stones in the road” are actually there and that you constantly make a huge effort to live with them… you start to have a closer look at them and realize what they are, how they got there, what’s their history, and that it is actually not necessary to make this constant effort to deviate them. Once you are aware of them you might as well work on removing them. Forgotten memories from far back might come to you and make you understand why things are the way they are and why you are the way you are, why friends and family are the way they are… you could also get to the bottom of these things through months of intense therapy… here she simply shows them to you and you will know naturally what to do with it… having a friendly spirit checking your body and mind like this, can help you to see these “issues” yourself and work on the yourself… and we all have “issues”, unavoidably, because our ego is the result of countless experiences, so the best is to understand them and to understand why we are the way we are… She allows us to feel things that we suppressed and didn’t pay attention to; old baggage that we carry around with us unnecessarily. In the figure of speech that I was using, she squeezes into your body, and since it is so tight with life inside you, she “squeezes out” the reason for some time, and allows you to feel the essence of your living being… your ego is aside, which can be a somewhat unfamiliar or even a scary for people who identify very much with and cling very heavily to their learned ego… The fact that she’s an inhibitor is also the reason why the experience is different for everyone (in its content, not in the general mechanism). The inhibiting nature lets you get “high” through our very own and personal feelings, makes you feel them in an overwhelmingly clear manner. Some people cry, some people laugh; some people get relaxed, others motivated; some discharge sadness, others build up their self-esteem… she inhibits the reason and gives everybody what is needed to heal… but since they are your own feelings, they never seem strange or unfamiliar… they might have been forgotten or suppressed, but never unfamiliar… This is the reason why she is a medicine (“medicina”): she allows us to discover and heal ourselves, physically and mentally. She is also seen as the queen of plants because she embodies a living spirit that can co-live within us like that for some time. This is very unique and special. And that is also her secret: to live in harmony and balance - even inside us. She’s a plant and plants are the base of life, in the sense that they are the ones that can take “dead matter” (like water- and earth molecules and photons from the sun) and convert it into life. We and animals cannot do that… How do plants do that? They get into the same rhythm and vibration of this “dead matter” and combine them in harmony (according to an algorithm programmed in their DNA), balancing the strength of each of the ingredients and forming new structure (fighting entropy) out of decaying matter by weaving the balanced dynamic of each of them together. Plants only take as much as they need and are in constant flow with the transformation of energy from lifeless matter to life. Moreover, she’s a vine, a vine from the jungle. There is a fierce struggle in the jungle. It’s a jungle… but she always strives for the light… she is also connected to the bottom, parasites drag on her, and is surely also connected to dark energies… she can show you these as well, but there is absolutely no need at all to go there… she herself strives for the light, always and that’s what we should do… She winds herself through this jungle, in perfect harmony and balance with all the other life. And she is connected to all the other life… We call her “she” because she embodies life, and life is female (females give life…). She embodies the secret of life, which is to be in balance and harmony with everything else in the universe and to strive toward the light, the higher energies… she is a very old spirit and has access to the life of all other living beings, physical structures and energies... This is why she is called the queen of plants (“reina de las plantas”)… When she is firm in your body and you are stable with her, when you feel well with her and start to dance with her, she can show you these things and many other things. Energetically and spiritually, things from ancient times and from the present. The diversity and magic of life, the connections from other levels of existence, the astral planes and different dimensions… if you are stable with her she will do this in your very own language, and with the concepts that you understand and are familiar with… but if, and only if, you take it slow with her… otherwise she will show you things that you don’t understand… First and foremost she will bring out what’s inside you. I know of alcoholics coming to a ceremony with the ambition to see and understand divine energies and the secrets of life, just in one night, just like that… they won’t… the plant will first work with them on their own issues, on their unhealthy bodies, and on their unhealthy minds that led them to their unhealthy bodies, which is extremely healing and useful, as a first step, but won’t allow her to show the things that they might want her to show them… it’s simply impossible, she’ll show you what she finds and what is needed at first… there’s too much interference in the way to get to higher spheres, and that is healing… It is a big gift when she shows you higher spheres that you can understand, but for this you have to be comfortable with her, and the energies around you have to be on a very high vibrational level… This is also why she is called a “teacher-plant” (“planta maestra”), and she can teach us not only about ourselves, but also about other living beings and dynamics… So the idea is not to get hit by her or blown away (which she can do as well), but rather to cultivate her gentle spirit inside you, like cultivating a living spirit, and to go with her on solid grounding, embracing her presence within you… you can then also talk with her, tell her to slow down, to go easy on you, or you can sit up and let her take you and fly… the idea is to co-live with her and her wisdom for a couple of hours… co-living does not mean control (do what you want to happen), nor does not mean the loss of control, but to co-live in mutual trust and in mutual control… If you are with her in the energetically light spirit and with a spiritual elevated person who is her very good friend and companion, and if you do your preparations and allow her in and invite her, if you allow her to co-live in you for some hours, she can be a very powerful friend and ally and show you not only the secrets about your life, past, present, and future, but many more secrets about life and happiness. She can help you to channel these because she (a jungle vine) embodies the main trick of life and happiness: to be in balanced harmony with everything else in the universe and to constantly strive for the light… This way she can help you to purify yourself from the inside and to continue on your path toward the personal light, balance and happiness… Microdosing Ayahuasca & Cat’s Claw
Ayahuasca Vine Only The Ayahuasca brew used in ceremonies with a shaman is a combination of the Banisteriopsis caapi vine and the Psychotria viridis leaf also known as Chakruna or Chacruna. The Chakruna leaf provides the DMT responsible for the hallucinogenic effects common in ceremonies. Microdosing does not include the Chakruna leaf so there is no DMT involved; it is only when the Chakruna plant is combined with the caapi vine that it becomes hallucinogenic. Since there is no DMT, microdosing the vine only is legal in most countries; a shaman is not necessary when microdosing. You are better off not microdosing the vine with the leaf as there is not enough MOAI in microdosing to de-animate the MAO in your system. This would cause the DMT to be totally neutralized. Macrodosing, which includes the Chakruna leaf, we believe should be done in a ceremony setting with a shaman. But many of the same benefits can be obtained by microdosing, which is more gentle and subtle. But even microdosing can and should be treated as a spiritual practice. Many have expressed the desire to maintain the feelings of peace and connection experienced after a full ceremony, which is entirely possible through microdosing. It is recommended that you set your intentions and be observant of yourself; journaling is recommended as the changes you experience can be subtle. Be observant of your feelings and how your daily life, as well as any physical conditions, may change. You may obtain insight, clarity, patience, endurance, vitality, etc. We would like to hear your experiences. We believe in seeking connection to “The Madre”, which is the spirit of Ayahuasca. She is a very powerful, loving, and gentle spirit and should be respected. Questions asked: Diet: If you have done ceremonial Ayahuasca, the diet before and after is no red meat, no processed foods, no salt, no alcohol, and no cheese or fermented foods. When microdosing, the diet is not necessary because the dosage is so small, but some have reported that their diet naturally improves and cravings can change. Can you drink alcohol? Yes but in moderation. How are the drops made? Fresh cut vine from deep in the jungles of Peru, pounded then boiled in huge stainless steel pots for 14 hours, refined slowly to a very thick paste. The paste is then rehydrated with distilled water. 70% Caapi Banisteriopsis vine only (no DMT) and 30% Cat’s Claw. The Caapi Pure Vine only is 100% pure vine. This is not a tincture. This product is for microdosing only. Drugs: Please do not substitute any medication prescribed by your physician with microdosing. Do not stop any medication without consulting your physician. Price and Amounts: $39 for 1 ounce dropper bottle plus shipping. Dose: We recommend that you start with just five drops under your tongue daily (sublingually) for 3- 5 minutes. Let it absorb into your mucus membranes and your capillary system; it will only take a few minutes. If you swallow, you lose half the value as it contacts your gastric system. It is ok after a few minutes to chase it with juice. It is suggested that you do this for a month then take a break for a week or two for the body to adjust. At this point, you may adjust the dosage. Everyone is different. You know you have taken too much if you feel nauseous. Then repeat as desired. Shake bottle before use. Keep refrigerated. If you are not able to keep it in the fridge for a few days, keep it out of the sun. FDA Compliance: The information on these pages have not been evaluated by the Food & Drug Administration or any other medical body. We do not aim to diagnose, treat, cure or prevent any illness or disease. Information is shared for educational purposes only. You must consult your doctor before acting on any content on these pages, especially if you are pregnant, nursing, taking medication, or have a medical condition. You can find us on Facebook Mystic Planet, our website www.mysticplanet.shop and on Etsy at: https://www.etsy.com/shop/MysticPlanetShop Email:Mysticplanet@mysticplanet.shop |
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